Am I Resisting God's Resistance?

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Numbers 22:32-34
32 “Why did you beat your donkey those three times?” the angel of the Lord demanded. “Look, I have come to block your way because you are stubbornly resisting me. 33 Three times the donkey saw me and shied away; otherwise, I would certainly have killed you by now and spared the donkey.” 34 Then Balaam confessed to the angel of the Lord, “I have sinned. I didn’t realize you were standing in the road to block my way. I will return home if you are against my going.”

Balaam had already been told by the Lord to not go with the men. When the king sent more men, Balaam asked God again on something the Lord had already spoken on. It's not that God changed His mind, but rather, He had to make His point clear to Balaam and King Balak. As Balaam was riding on his donkey, three times the donkey say the angel of the Lord holding a sword and it tried to avoid it, I would imagine, for Balaam's sake. The Lord opened the donkey's mouth and she asked Balaam why he had beaten her three times! It turns out that Balaam had indeed sinned against God by going with Balak's men. Balaam saw his sin, confessed it, and repented. But instead of sending Balaam home, He used Balaam's sin for His greater glory.

With all the changes in motion at this point in my life, I feel like I can't afford to be like Balaam and refuse to listen to the Lord's warnings. I feel like I'm being drawn in a direction that is of His will, but I must still proceed carefully. I don't want to resist God stubbornly! However, if I happen to do that, I know that God will still use my mistake for His greater purpose. I can rest assured that He will accept my repentance. But, man! I totally don't want to be one to be beating upon the very thing that is trying to lead me to safety! I want to be obedient. I want to be like the donkey and see the angel of the Lord.

Heavenly Father, I love You so much! I thank You for Your Son, Jesus! Please forgive me for my sins. Show me the path that You want me to take. Please help me to see Your plan and Your will. Guide me, Father. I am willing to be obedient, now. I pray all these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.