God's will must be done

Psalm 127:1Unless the LORD builds the house,
those who build it labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchman stays awake in vain.
2It is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
for he gives to his beloved sleep.

Unless God it is God's will and He is doing it, then we toil in vain. We can do nothing unless God wants us to do it. His will must be done. We can work all day and night, but we will never achieve what we want if it is different from God's will. When we abide in God's will, we have rest.

As I read this psalm, it is affirmed in my mind to not worry and meddle with our finances. I know we do not have enough, but God is going to provide. It is His will for us to live here, it is His will for us to have Lion, to be involved in ministry, to love others and to live by faith in Jesus. My flesh desires to search all our monies and look for places to pull up the right amount for rent and the bills. However, I feel that God is really saying, "Wait. I will provide because my will must be done." Honestly, I feel a little foolish. I feel that way because I think to man, we must look like we are irresponsible and that we don't care about paying our rent or bills on time. I feel like Hanzo is working and working and loosing health and sleep over trying to do more for God. What I'm learning from this passage is that I must seek to do only what God wants me to do because if I'm trying to do stuff on my own, I'll just be exhausted and fruitless.
So, what is God telling me to do?
I must pray more with God. I must seek to be in His word more often. I must take care of Lion and focus on nurturing and caring for him with patience and grace. I must build relationships that bring people back to Jesus. As for the finances, I shouldn't frivolously spend. No desserts, snacks, goodies, or movies. Just wait on the Lord's provision. When support comes in, make sure we deposit it right away. Focus on how I can get started with UFirst. When God sends the money for us to get plugged in, it'll be the right time. Love and nurture Hanzo. Support his ministry and calling the best I can.
I am very tempted to ask for financial help from man. I keep thinking of asking Maui Dad, Lisa, or even my Grandparents for money. However, this is not trusting in God. Hanzo and I have asked God and His word says that He hears our petitions. He knows our needs before we even ask for them. He will answer us and His will shall be done. I need to really have confidence in God's provision. I shouldn't be like, "I have faith that God will come through, but He might come through in a small, subtle way." That attitude isn't really fearing God or having faith in Him. I need to really have confidence in God because no house will be built, nor city protected, unless God wants it to be.

Heavenly Father, I know that You love our family and that You have always provided abundantly for us. Lord, I know that You are fully aware of our needs and that You will provide for those needs. You love us and want the best for us and right now, the best for us is trusting in You with confidence and faith. I am sorry for having a weak and small faith. I'm sorry for doubting You. Lord, forgive me. I have full confidence in You. You are mighty to save. I 100% believe that You will provide every cent of what we need to pay the rent, the bills, and love on others so they get closer to Christ. Lord, we are rich because we have a relationship with Jesus. Thank You for Your son and Jesus, thank You for coming to pay the price and win the war for our souls. I love You, God. If we have nothing to pay the rent and loose this place, I know that Your will must be done and that it is the best for us. I trust in You. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.