My heart check

Psalm 145:19He fulfills the desire of those who fear him;
he also hears their cry and saves them.

This scripture comes out of David's song of praise to the Lord. He says that God fulfills the desires of those who fear Him. Are these the desires of our heart? Are these good desires to have? Or is he talking about the desire that comes out of fear of God? That sounds more accurate. Just as a parent doesn't want to give a child something that they want when they are disrespectful, God will not simply bless us because we want it. He only blesses to magnify Himself. When we desire God's glory to be magnified, then He provides for that purpose. I always come back to this question...Do I really fear God? I think I am not afraid of God as much as I am of the consequences of sin. Main idea here is that God is our provider when we fear Him in a healthy way and He is also our savior when we cry out to Him out of His graciousness.

I need to fear the Lord. I keep forgetting who He truly is. I have spiritual amnesia. It's crazy. God is mighty to save. He is more than able to provide and fulfill desires. Why do I forget who I am talking to when I pray? Why do I forget to pray? I think I'm really seeing just how dry I am. I am not abiding in Jesus the way I should. I really need to repent. My heart is set on comfortable things. I am praying for things that really do not spring from my fear of God. I need to set my mind straight. Jesus is my Lord and Savior. He is worthy to be praised and be obsessed over. I'm seeing just how much I am lacking in my walk.

Heavenly Father, You are awesome and fearsome. I repent. Please forgive me for forgetting who You truly are. Make me understand You better. Lord, reveal to me Your glory and may I be forever transformed by it. Lord, I love You. I want to be more like Jesus. Lord, thank You for being so gracious. You are God of gods and King of kings. You are more than I can fathom. Lord, help me to be humble and totally obsessed with You. I pray all this in Jesus' name, Amen.