Strength to rejoice

Ecclesiastes 5: ²⁰For he will not much remember the days of his life because God keeps him occupied with joy in his heart.

Psalm 18:¹I love you, O LORD, my strength.

Ephesians 3:¹⁴For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, ¹⁵from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, ¹⁶that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, ¹⁷ so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, ¹⁸may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, ¹⁹and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

Solomon says that a man who enjoys his toil will not remember most of it because he will be occupied with joy. In David's Psalm, it says starts off by declaring the Lord as his strength. David rejoices in God and so God fills him with joy. It takes strength to rejoice in God. Paul says that he prays for the church of Ephesus for them to be filled with God's strength to comprehend God's love and the fullness of God.

I desire the fullness of God. I am lacking joy. God's word to me a few days ago was to put on strength and dignity, but I feel like I am failing at doing so. I've been so tired lately and just dreading feeding the baby during the night and feeling hopeless when he cries. Hanzo has done so much to encourage me and help me get rest, but there is a bigger underlying problem that needs to be addressed. I think my problem is that I am not rejoicing in the Lord. Where do I find this joy? Why do I feel so empty? Here are some steps I must take in the right direction:
-repent of my sin of pessimism
-pray to God for the strength to rejoice
-look for the good, joyful, and blessing part of every toil-some situation
I don't want a fake, plastered on joy, but until the real joy comes, I need to practice and train myself to see God's love.

Heavenly Father, I repent of my sin. Please forgive me for being so fixated on the toil, the burden, and the strife. Lord, I choose to train my eyes to see Your good in my life. Give me the strength to rejoice. Jesus, thank You for giving me a hope and a future. Without Your salvation, I have nothing to rejoice in. Please help me to see things through Your eyes. Fill me with the fullness of God. You have truly been merciful and gracious to me, blessing me in all areas of my life. I am so sorry for being selfish and spoiled, asking for more and not being grateful for what I already have. Thank You for the life You have given me. It is so good. I have nothing to complain about. Whatever sleep I get, is more than enough. Whatever food I eat, is more than enough. Whatever time I get to myself, is more than enough. I love You, Lord, my strength and my joy. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.