Crying it out

Psalm 102:¹ Hear my prayer, O LORD;let my cry come to you! ² Do not hide your face from me
in the day of my distress!
Incline your ear to me;
answer me speedily in the day when I call!

This psalm is described as a prayer of one afflicted when he is faint and pours his heart out to the Lord. This psalmist has hit rock bottom. This psalmist if pouring out his heart to God to hear God's voice, to see His face, and to receive rescuing.

It seems that God is revealing to me His Fatherly heart. I've been learning a lot about God through His scripture describing His parenting style. First, let me start with describing what I do with Lion as a parent. He has a hard time falling asleep on his own. Now there are two approaches...either soothe the baby when he is crying, or let him cry it out. There are times I try to soothe Lion, but he is still crying. Therefore, all I can do during those times is let him cry it out. It is a painful thing for both of us to go through. I hate hearing him cry. Also, sometimes I am watching him where he can't see me and I see him looking for me and just bawling. It makes me feel like a horrible mother, but Lion is just that type of baby. I've realized that I was inconsistent with him. Sometimes I'd soothe and sometimes I would let him cry it out. Lion didn't know what to do and I think it prolonged his needing to cry it out. Now, he is starting to change. He no longer cries and cries. He knows he's ok. If he really needs something, then he keeps on about it, but overall, he is learning that I'm not far from him and he needs to fall asleep on his own. It makes me realize that God is always near. This psalmist is crying out and God knows exactly what he needs and when he needs it. So, should I cry to God or just wait for His timing. I need to do both. More importantly, I can know that God loves me and doesn't want me to keep crying and crying and that He is keeping a close watch on me and knows what I need.

Heavenly Father, I know that I sometimes demand things of You that You know I do not need. Please forgive me. Lord, I pray that when I cry out to You, I rest in knowing that You have heard me and are already anticipating my needs. May I be patient in waiting upon You. Please continue to transform me by the power of Your Holy Spirit. Lord Jesus, I love You. Make me into the person You want me to be. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.