Steadfast

James 5:¹¹Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful.

Steadfast means to be resolutely firm and unwavering. The person who is steadfast in their faith in Jesus is considered blessed. Job is an example of steadfastness. Even though all was taken from Job, he still worshiped and praised God. God's purposes are always compassionate and merciful. That is something we must remember especially in times of pain and suffering and loss.

My left nipple is throbbing in pain. I don't know why it is so sore. It feels like how it felt when I first was nursing Lion. Why is it suddenly painful again? I almost forgot just how much pain I felt when I first started breastfeeding. I started crying out to God again for healing. It's like God is reminding me of how much I need Him. He is testing me. Am I going to turn to Him for healing, comfort, and worship? Or am I going to sulk in my suffering? Also, it just shows me how lazy I get in depending on Him when I'm not suffering. Man, I'm quick to pray when I'm unable to sleep or uncomfortable, but what about praying to thank Him for good health, peace, comfort and rest? I'm such a sinner. I couldn't sleep because the pain in my breast is so intense. I need God. I am just dust. I need to be steadfast in my faith in Jesus. I need to remember that no matter how much I feel like I'm suffering, God is always compassionate and merciful.

Heavenly Father, I'm so sorry for being so wavering in my faith. I'm sorry that it takes pain and suffering to bring me to Your throne. Lord, forgive me. Help me to be steadfast. Lord, please heal me from the pain in my breast. Jesus, please bear this pain upon Yourself. Please take it from me. Help me to fall back asleep so I can get rest. Lord, please heal me! I know You have the power to do it. Please be willing to heal me, Lord! Give me Your compassion and mercy for others. May I keep my eyes fixed on You. Prevent me from gazing upon myself and my own problems. Lord, help me! Help me! I need You. I need Your salvation. I need Your comfort. I pray all this in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.